Wednesday, February 25, 2009,5:49 PM
just want to be happie
haha..was thinking...
if only..he didnt left mi in the 1st place
i wouldnt have to be hurt again like now.
but then again..
wad can i say?
i was the one who didnt..
cherish in the 1st place
and caused him to give up on mi.
and he ended up hurting in another rs too.
i blamed myself.
if i didnt failed to cherish him
he wouldnt left mi.
and he wouldnt be hurt by her.
but..
i dunno.
haha.ytd drank thru the nite.
tried alot.
total 3cans coke 6panadols.
tried applying liquor on cig
tried drinking liquor with ash.
but still..no feel. haha.
was wondering.
if he know im being hurt now.
by some bastard or whoever.
would he feel heartpain..
like i did when i know abt his.
but well..
i doubt he will..
haha..after all..
im not her..
think he will only heartpain her.
sighs..
why must hurt mi when im still hurting.
im tired..real tired..
can spare mi..
spare mi from all these hurts..
im reali tired..
do i not deserve to be loved?
do i only deserve to be hurt?
haha..wad am i asking..haha..
so tired..if i could..
really would like to take a break
dun wanna work..
rot and rest at home..
reali no strength..
haha..cannot believe..
i would get hurt coz of such guy
HAHA...
this just show how useless I AM!
i miss my hubby..
haha..
if only he never give up on mi..
if only..
haha..
called him that day..
cried..and he asked wad happen.
cried out i miss u..
was crying terribly..
wanted so much to cry out..
why did u leave mi..
but then again..
wads the point..
haha..people already died heart on mi
already gave up on mi..
say all these for wad..
haha..
why always can see peoples love.
never gave up..
even when they did real wrong.
but the other party never give up.
but why it wont happen for mi?
haha..
having him giving up on mi..
is reali..like..qing tian pi li.
lols..so unbelievable.
曾經相愛卻又分手
為何相愛不能相守
到底為什麼
早知如此何必開始
歡笑以後代價就是冷漠
既然說過深深愛我
為何又要離我遠走
海誓山盟拋在腦後
早知如此何必開始
我還是原來的我