Tuesday, January 13, 2009,6:55 AM
just want to be happie
sighs...
these few days suck alot
alot things happen during the weekend
initially was reali happie zhiyi came back
but that nitex went drinking.
after that.sucky incident had to happen.
then had a big quarrel with sanjie
once again..
im the one gave in.
simply just hate quarrels
esp among sisters
sighs.made a promise..to appease her.
but a promise which i been trying hard
to accomplish.
most sad thing was..
i couldnt get to complete my wish
its reali sth i wanna do..
last year couldnt get to do so
was so happie..tot tis year..
what a miracle i could actually go.
really..
really wanted so much to go.
sighs.
but sanjie said.
if i go.she would serve ties with mi.
so serious ma.
why must coz of wad i do in personal life
affect sistership lei
dun understand her.
but in order not to anger her furthermore
i agreed.
so sad.
if they reali know my wish
if they reali cares how i feel.
why must interfere my personal things.
i know what im doing.
seriously i know..
why cant they just let me free.
and have my wish.
life already so miserable.
yet my wish i cant do it also.
sighs.was so happie im taking leave
but now.
no more taking.
suddenly felt so sians
so empty.
still thought.
this year cny..at least got sth
can let mi enjoy.
no need feel bored.
but yet..end up..sighs
told boss i not taking leave le
he was like..why!?!
take la..cny lehx..
i want to also..but i cant..
asked sanjie..can after the trip
she so agitated said NO!
if u go find him again.i will serve ties with u
wth lehx..
by right..i should dun care.
as in..
i reali will in the past..
hahas..
but..
dun wan sistership become like that for nth
sighs..
sians..
tml goin mani & pedi
fri goin buy clothes.
just now was thinking..
for wad?
i have nowhere to go also.
hahas..
ppl cny super busy..
go here go there bai nian..
mi?
stayed home rot!
nowhere go.
only see my parents,3sisters&families
then?no more...
that's my cny.
my most unforgettable cny was..
the year he broke off with mi.
1st time in my life.
i spent all my cny at his place.
on cny eve,quarrel wif mum
took my things.went his place.
never come back.
was surprised and excited tho.
hahas..but never expect..
that to be the last..
really enjoy those days..
well..
hahas... (:
my life is just so boring.
when then will it change.
hmms..
sighs...